Live as if you're Going to Die. REALLY.

I decided that I'm really going to do it. I'm going to live as if I'm going to die. I know that sounds ridiculous. We're all going to die, and we all know it. But isn't there a place inside you that denies you're ever going to die? Maybe that's because there's a part of us that isn't ever going to die. Maybe it's because we just don't want to think about the unknown. The unknown can be very scary.

I've never shied away from death. In fact I've found some of the most intimate, beautiful moments I've had with friends have been when they were near death. There's an honesty and vulnerability that comes with the truth of death. I cherish those memories.

I know I'm going to die ONE day. But I certainly don't live as if it could happen ANY day, which it could. I'm really not prepared for it. So I decided that I will live next year as if it's my last year to live. I will put things in order that must be done, but more importantly I will make decisions and take actions based on the belief that it's my last year to experience this life.  My assumption is that by living as though I only have a year to live, my decision-making will be sharper, my values will become clearer, and my life will become more meaningful. 

Will that really happen? I don't know. But I'm excited about the experiment and I'm eager to find out.